Time for change
Jan. 11th, 2006 05:17 pm10:00PM Central Afghan Time
I’m packing my gear now to go out to one of our firebases day after tomorrow. This wasn’t a surprise, my OIC and I discussed it over a month ago, and I not only knew it was coming, I agreed to it. This is necessary for what I want to become and be, and I wouldn’t want to go home without having had the experience.
Still, I really wish I didn’t have to uproot right now. Don’t get me wrong, this IS something I want, it just happens also to be something I don’t want. I’m settled into a routine that suits me. Much as I need to break routine to grow the way I want to, I hate to abandon a routine that’s become so comfortable.
It also will probably cause a drastic cut in my writing output. (That’s one of the negatives of the U.S. Army: they don’t understand that fanfic is one of the basic human necessities.) I hoped to get one more story out before this time came, but it came suddenly, and there we are. I’ll make an effort, but the man I’m going to work with is a hard charger, not happy unless he can fill every waking moment with labor. I love the guy, but he’s not an easy environment.
Then, at the end of a month of that, I’m scheduled for my two-weeks’ leave in Germany. That I’m looking forward to, but it’s another thing that will slow down the writing speed. And I love the writing.
Well, I’ll just have to see how it goes. Even in my current laid-back circumstances, I can’t have everything my way.